I never thought I'd be writing this blog post, never mind having to feel the way I feel right now, but here I am.
My beloved little boy Maui, who I'd only had for around 3 months, was sadly hit by a car last week and killed. I live in a fairly rural area, so to have him pass so easily, and quickly, was a shock, and very difficult. The only consolation is that he didn't feel anything, it was quick and painless.
I am absolutely devastated, I loved this boy with all my heart. It still doesn't really make sense to me. And I still cannot quite believe it has happened. It just doesn't feel real.
Every time I get home from work, I expect to see him pawing at the front door, begging for a cuddle and a kiss. He was such a lovey dovey boy, so incredibly sweet and playful. He always loved to play with you and bite your fingers, he never purposely tried to hurt you, as he would always keep his claws in and bite you gently.
He had so many little unique traits, including only drinking from my bathroom tap, making this adorable little noise every time he jumped up on the bed/sofa to see you, how he'd place his paw on your hand when sleeping.
I must admit, I am struggling a bit.
I am throwing myself into my work, trying to focus on anything and everything else but losing him.
When you've created such a strong bond with a pet, even in such a short time, and you have them ripped away from you in an instant, it is truly heartbreaking. It feels like my heart was literally ripped from my chest and shoved back in.
Sometimes I can feel numb, like my body just can't cope with feeling anything, and then other times, I feel like I am completely broken, and I can't stop crying.
He was my absolute everything, my angel. I am going to miss him so so much.
I just hope wherever he is, whatever he is doing, he is happy. That he knows how much I loved him, and how much his daddy loved him.
RIP Maui ♡
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